Everytime you get the title ‘new start’ on a health, fitness or whatever the hell this is blog usually means a line drawn under a failed attempt. The protagonist will drag themselves up from the floor after another beating and will try once again to outwit the demons that invariably have battered them down to defeat.
I won’t lie, the scenario could (and will) certainly apply here. But here a new start is also meant in the literal as well as metaphorical senses.
Last week, G and I completed on a bungalow in Devon. It has a sea view (if you stand on the roof – perspective is everything) and most importantly a garden. It also has reasonable access to both Exmoor and Dartmoor and all kinds of places to explore. I’m beside myself with excitement.
More on that will come in due course.
Last week I also started the final part of my personal trainer course. I’m partly doing it to bookend something I started over ten years ago but also because I feel like it it’s been ages since I’ve done something for myself. Pure indulgence. I’m loving being back in education. Testing my brain and dredging up topics I haven’t thought about or discussed since I closed the shop. But it’s also been a way to hold a mirror up to my own health and fitness.
Well, it’s been a bit of a shock. Denial is easy – especially when you’ve practiced it as much as I have. But this mirror does not lie and it’s not been easy to look at the figures in black and white. I’m still waiting for a few bits and bobs of tests to come in and then, essentially I’ll be treating myself like a client. I’ll come up with a defined plan to make progress in the right direction.
I’m conscious that with menopause around the corner this thing is going to get harder and harder to sort. Although physical fitness is the end goal, I will also need to focus on functional fitness. It’s essential to ensure the changes this time are sufficient to last a lifetime. I’m still reeling a little to be honest and need to gather my thoughts before I can find the solutions but, it’s apparent that after years of eating disorders, excessive dieting and binge eating that the old addage of ‘eat less and move more’ is no longer sufficient.